January 2005
She is Not Pleased (As our Mother Adjusts)
by Gwilda Wiyaka

I am just a lone human being, like most of us, doing the best as I can.  I try to take responsibility for my position and move through my issues.  Healing and evolving spiritually has been my passion as long as I can remember.  I have been driven since childhood with a knowing that things are not in balance nor are we working with the flow of nature and all her unspoken laws. I seem to have come with a deep need to change that.

In my perpetual search I have studied many religious texts and oral teachings.  I have found that all of them, in their own way, speak of this time as one of change and "ascension."  Everyone seems to have one idea or another about what than means:  "We are going to heaven and everyone else is bound for hell."  "We must kill the infidels!"

I have also found that if you follow any of the great religions to the core, there you find the Creator.  The problem is in our interpretation somewhere in between.  These interpretations came about as a result of our passage through the "Great Dark" when our solar system was out of the photon band and at a lower frequency of less light and thus less understanding.

Now, in the Age of Aquarius, we are reentering the photon band and the light is casting a nasty shadow. Our denials are harder to keep safely tucked out of awareness, as individuals, as a culture and as a race. 

People and nations are becoming increasingly desperate to find a scapegoat to cast their denials on to and then destroy.  There seems to be forming a huge rift between those willing to look, change and evolve and those who will, or cannot.  International tension is at an all time high.

Through this time, I, as many of us, have been quite busy.  As my shadow emerges I have been processing what I see mentally, coming to terms as to how I feel about it and receiving the appropriate soul retrievals to integrate with my shadow and then supporting my physical body with supplementation and proper diet as it evolves through the rapid changes. In this way I have been increasingly coming out of denial and polarization on a personal level.  I have been helping my clients do the same.

My homeopathic doctor, says that he has to recommend similar supplementation for me as he would to an athlete.  Well, believe me, at 54 I am no athlete, just beat up around the edges with keeping up with the planetary evolution.  I think we all are.

One day not long ago, I woke up to find that I vaguely remember who I was even six months ago.  I am still trying to settle into who I have become.

These are difficult times. As you probably realize, there was a massive earthquake under the Indian Ocean, (9.0) that created huge tidal waves and killed over 117,000 people in Indonesia December 26, 2004.   More are expected to perish from disease and exposure before all is said and done. Talk about mass exodus.

Mother rolled over in her restless sleep.  She is not pleased. Our unbalanced living is not without its effect. We are not following our instincts like the other animals on the planet.  The animals all moved inland.  The last report I saw indicated that not so much as one dead rabbit was found.  Yet, poor mother can no longer roll over in her sleep without killing her human children.  We have lost touch with ourselves and therefore with her.  We no longer hear her warnings and end up in the wrong place at the wrong time.